1/11/12

Nakedness

I acquired a new work of art to hang in my home today.  It looks a little bit like this:


What do you think?  My grandma painted it a few decades ago when she started studying art.  I called my Grandpa yesterday night and said, "Grandpa, would you lend me one of Grandma's naked lady paintings?" and he said he could probably work something out depending on what the monthly lease rate looked like.  You should know my Grandpa is a tease and a very funny man.  Next he said, "Well, I suppose you can borrow it, but I'm not sure if it's in very good shape, it has finger prints all over it".  Like I said, he's a funny guy.  There is a legendary family story attached to this painting and it goes like this:

>> Years ago when my Grandma studied art she took some figure classes.  She finished a few nude paintings, this painting was one of her best.  My Grandpa decided to hang it in the front sitting room across from the couch.  One day, two women from their church came to see my Grandma.  My Grandpa welcomed them into the house and invited them to sit on the couch.  They were trying to talk about spiritual topics with my Grandma, but both of the women couldn't help but look at the painting, blush, and lose track of their thoughts.  My family and I still laugh about this story to this day. <<

Yesterday someone left an anonymous comment from this post that read the following:


Before I even had a chance to read the comment from anonymous, the loveliest lady named Melissa replied the following heroic statement:



(I don't like to tease at the expense of another, and I can promise you if you email me with any questions or concerns I will answer openly, honestly and kindly.  However, when you leave an anonymous comment, I just can't guarantee you that same safety.  You understand, right?)

The human body is normal and natural, but for many people it is very awkward.  I am flattered that anonymous thinks I have high standards (thanks, anon - can I call you that?  I feel like we're on nickname terms now that I dedicated an entire post to you), and I hope you still think I have high standards despite my teasing.  I believe I have provided proof that I inherited a genetically predisposed condition from my Grandma to enjoy painting nudes (and to tease, apparently), so it's hardly my fault anyway.  Okay, that's probably not true.  Here's what you should really know about my nude painting.


This is another painting to accompany the first in the infertility series.  There are many of you who may not relate to this painting, but many of you who might.  Thinking about this topic, I felt like the concept was best portrayed around her in her most vulnerable state.  True, a turtleneck may have been the second best option because those terrible things always make me feel vulnerable as if I'm driving around town and being choked simultaneously, but I still felt like the birthday-suit was the first best option so I went with it.  I hoped to portray the emotion that she is looking at her fleshy, uncomfortable, and awkward body trying to come to terms with why it isn't working the way it should work.  It is a very private and helpless moment of searching for hope and peace when you're beyond suffering.  I can't think of another way to express this moment more than the way it currently is, and I guess that's the whole point.


I told my Grandpa I'd love to hang that painting on my wall and keep it's infamous legacy of making people feel uncomfortable alive.  And so I did.  I challenge you to all go throughout the day having more pride and awareness of our universal nakedness that we all have in common underneath our clothes.  Hey wait - put your jacket back on, I didn't say go throughout the day naked, I just said to feel okay about your nakedness.  We've all got a body.  It's been the subject of scientific and artist research for centuries because it's beautiful, fascinating, it creates life, and it's a universal thing.  Whether yours is wide, short, thin, tall, saggy, baggy, or tight like skinny jeans - just enjoy it.

PS. Thanks to everyone who joined in on the instagram conversation, you made me laugh all night long.
PPS. This post has been brought to you by Melissa the brave.  Thanks Melissa, I did have a great day.

46 comments:

  1. I love you so much for this. Well, I love you for everything, but I can't commend you enough for sticking up for this. I saw that on IG last night and about pooped my pants with a lot of different feelings, but mostly incredulity that someone would consider the naked body an issue of standards. Jeez. Everyone needs to lighten up and love the body, and I think you nailed it. It's beautiful, it's a work of art and science, and it should be completely revered, not hidden for the sake of "standards." You are a champion!!

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  2. this made me cry. you.are.awesome!

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  3. I'm sad I missed the conversation...it sounds like it was funny :)
    When I saw this painting I instantly thought it must be part of the infertility series. I'm not married or in a relationship where I'm think about having children but I still feel like I can empathize with women and men who are struggling with this trial. I have a lot of friends and family who are finding their way through this trial.
    I probably already emailed you but I wanted to thank you again for this series. I was able to send a print of the first painting to a couple of friends who are struggling through this and they loved the print. They all said that you captured how they were feeling in a perfect way. So thank you on behalf of those friends :)

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  4. I am the first to admit I am not very cultured. I also blush at cuss words, PDA and especially nudity. That being said, I am also an infertile woman, and very few things have touched me as much or have captured how I feel like your infertility series has. So thank you for painting it, and sharing it.

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  5. I love this. You handled it perfectly with grace and a sense of humor. Bravo!

    Also, I like nude paintings. They're more interesting to me.

    Sort of related: one time I was looking at a blog of an artist friend (merricksart.blogspot.com) and she had a drawing of a nude from her art class and I totally recognized the model as a friend of mine. Provo is a small world sometimes.

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  6. this post is more awesome than awesome. oh, we americans get so touchy about such things!! its silly that we do. i'm taking some awesome quotations from this post that will live in infamy in my journal, naked with truth.

    xx

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  8. This is a beautiful painting and does capture that longing and confusion left by infertility. And I would know...I am as infertile as they come. While it's clear that anonymous has never been to an art museum, it's also clear that she has never had to go to a fertility clinic where all modesty is thrown out the window with hopes of achieving a dream. You quickly realize that the body is a machine and if it's broken, it must be fixed, and often that includes looking under the hood. Now of course, this is all practical and art is not always practical. But I don't see how you could portray it any other way. Thanks for doing so.

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  9. My dear, I think you hit the nail on the head with this one.

    As you know, there is an ongoing debate about when a figure is considered to be "nude" or "naked" in works of art. "Naked" is typically used to characterize a figure study or an average person. "Nude", on the otherhand, is set aside for images of antiquity and deity. Someone is "nude" when they are not just representing themselves but a higher ideal such as beauty, truth and light.

    So I would certainly say that although your figure is "naked" in her expression of vulnerablity that she is a classical nude. She represents pain and beauty, and emotions that so many people in this world must suffer through.

    PS - your painting is not only moving and inspiring BUT it is already controversial. Klimt and Rodin would be so proud of you!

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  10. I am just so enjoying this conversation here and on FB and Twitter. ;) I love the dialogue it's created and hearing more about the reasoning behind your art. Thanks for that!

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  11. A wonderfully written post that really grabbed me. While reading I couldn't help but float back to my own family history since there's a similar thread but let me stay focused on your own story here. I enjoy reading the way you work to express the feeling and theme in your art. Thank you for sharing your grandparents, your process and your anonymous sense of humor!

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  12. I cant help but stare at those legs. Your Grandma had extraordinary talent...and lucky you to have it too!

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  13. oh heavens, I've been following this conversation via instagram/twitter and have thoroughly enjoyed it. I'm with you on this one, and you're right, go Melissa!

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  14. Beautiful paintings. And a beautiful sentiment.

    I started out as an art student, and it bothered me when I got this sort of response. People wouldn't say these sorts of things to a medical student. But both an artist and a doctor study the human body, just for different reasons.

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  15. oh and I'm loving this painting you're working on!

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  16. I agree those legs on your grandma's painting are amazing! I need to do more figure study. I always wondered, when you paint do you get someone to pose for you? Or do you use reference or are you so awesome that you can just use your brain?

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  17. First, your family sounds hilarious!!
    Second, I love this post and your explanation to why you are painting the infertility series and with nude paintings. It is so inspiring and amazingly beautiful! Thank you for painting this!

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  18. I believe in modesty because of my church, but I also wish I could live in a nudist colony. Kind of. Classic nude art intrigues me, because hey, I look kinda like that too. We all do, and it's beautiful.

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  19. 1) Your grandma was a pretty decent painter! Was that observational?

    2) I like you a lot.

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  20. i think the painting is beautiful.

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  21. cait, this is a truly fantastic post. can't tell you how much I love what you're doing. the turtleneck bit had me totally laughing out loud at work!!!

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  22. Awesome!!!!
    both yours and Melissa's explinations are great responses to such a silly comment.
    I love that you hung the painting up to make more people feel uncomfortable" hahaha! :o)
    and it's a gorgeous painting by the way (as is yours)
    talent clearly runs through the family!

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  23. I love drawing nudes and am often a bit embarrassed to show someone my sketchbookincase they'll be surprised or turned off by my drawings of women with naked boobies.
    This post makes me feel a bit braver :) Your paintings are beautiful

    xo
    http://kittysnooks.blogspot.com/

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  24. Your grandmother's painting is beautiful and looks wonderful hanging in your home. I also love the piece you're working on now and hope you'll do prints of it one day.
    Melissa really said it perfectly -- and I couldn't agree more!

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  25. Ah Thank you for addressing this issue in such a sensitive way, along with your wonderful sense of humour thrown in! It always riles me up when people are judgemental about nudes, especially people within religious realm- I believe in God wholeheartedly and am a follower of Christ, but to judge artists in painting nakedness as a subject of beauty and vulnerability, it triggers something in me. Like most things in life, there is an appropriate time for nakedness and an appropriate way in which it should be shown. And of course, the intent behind the piece changes things as well! Your work is beautiful, Caitlin. And I love this piece that you are working on!

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  27. Amen and hallelujah, Cait!! The human body is a beautiful piece of divine art and is celebrated as such when an artist depicts the nude with sensitivity. Maybe if we were to teach those around us this concept -- most especially the young ones in our lives -- then more in our society would be more prone to reverence the human body and be less likely to get caught up in its exploitation (such as in pornography). Just a thought.

    By the way Cait, I think your grandma's painting is lovely. Are brushstrokes and colors genetic? Because it looks as if you've inherited a bit of her style -- which is really cool.

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  28. I love your explanation of the painting and what it says about infertility. I've always been fascinated and saddened by infertility (my sisters and mom have had a combined 20 miscarriages), and felt a little guilty when I was able to get pregnant easily, even though I was thrilled. But my heart still aches for my infertile 'sisters,' and I think that's one reason why I'm so touched by your paintings dedicated to that. So, thanks for that bravery and sensitivity.

    Also, I am so absolutely annoyed by anonymous comments. I don't even have that wide of a readership on my blog, but every now and then an anonymous crazy will come out of the woodwork and make some off-the-wall offensive comment about who knows what and it is so very obnoxious. If you hate me, for pete's sake just go ahead and tell me! Don't hide behind the cowardly 'anonymous' tag! Sheesh...

    I think the painting you did for me and Ty for Christmas would have been much more fascinating had it been nude. Hahahaha... :)

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  29. Thank you, thank you, thank you! You and Melissa said it all, and so well! I hate having to "defend" my hubby's art. Maybe I'll just refer everyone to this post from now on. I love both your and your grandma's paintings. Beautiful! (And is it wrong that we have that same desire to make people squirm??? Especially in this area!) :)

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  30. First of all - I LOVE that picture your grandma did! Wow. It is super gorgeous. Second, I love your infertility series. It definitely speaks to me. Third - welcome to the world of official legit blogging. I don't think you are official until some uneducated, close minded anon posts something rude/lame/pointless etc comment on your blog. So you should feel proud and accomplished. Well done.

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  31. And now my day is great. I'm glad I could help. Now I'm off to stretch this canvas and paint what else...a nude. Xoxo.

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  32. thanks! what a great post.

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  33. I am infertile and really battling with it.. to the point that I can't yet verbalise my emotions. Your paintings (and your words in this post) do that for me. You have amazing insight and talent.

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  34. It's so interesting, this. I have a partial nude in my home (kitchen!) and am raising a son. I've never even thought about it. However, that may be because as a writer (and someone who is also Mormon), I come across judgements about my writing in this vein, as well.

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  35. Yes, this is me, who sparked the reason for this post. As another comment said, I blush at cuss words, PDA, and nudity. It is an opinion. I know that, and I feel like it is okay to share an opinion if it is something that makes me feel "uneasy" in a sense. I hope this clears things up for you people. I just have different standards. Yes, everybody has a body, but to me it is not something to be shared with the world. Sorry, but that is my opinion. Comment sharing people, give me a break. Thanks

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  36. Hi Anonymous! Sorry to be such a tease, I hope you'll still read my blog :). I'm sorry I put you on the spot, and I don't mind that you left that comment. It's definitely a question that is probably on the minds of many people, and so I wanted to address it publicly. People are more and less sensitive to this idea based on their personal experiences. Some people may be offended by a bare shoulder while others can hardly be offended. While I have no intention of being an offensive artist and always have the highest intention of being a person of high standards, my art will never be able to satisfy everyone and I will never attempt to do so. It would be a pursuit with no end or merit. I hope to produce art from my heart that I can always feel proud of in every way.

    Wishing you the best,
    Caitlin

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  37. I find this post so refreshing, after I just got back from Penang, where 90 percent of the women at my hotel were wearing burkas!! Even in the pool!!

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  38. Great post! You're awesome.

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  39. I love your Grandpa's Story! He's probably a fun man to know.

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  40. What a great story and beautiful art from both your grandmother and yourself!

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  41. I'm a fairly new follower of your blog and am such a fan of what you do and create - this post only makes me more so!

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  42. Oh my gosh, your turtleneck comment had me laughing harder than I've laughed in a while! I developed a great love of nudes after going to the Louve a few years ago, and really want to purchase a nude birth painting to hang in my house, though I know it would make many of the people who come to my house uncomfortable (I think my MIL might die of embarrasment!) I love your infertility painting, it's beautiful.

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  43. I actually posed for a figure class a long time ago (when pregnant with my first child who is now 4!) and I actually asked one of the artists if I could take his painting home because I love it so much! It's hiding somewhere, but now I want to bring it out and put it on display because I'm so proud of myself for doing it and it's just a beautiful painting.

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